Day 1

On December 17 I had met my limit to work. I had taken on a contract that I worked as hard as I ever have most days 5am - 10 pm and thought I had a good product - and those on the team said the same... well -- a person who obviously lacks any sense of confidence tore it apart - I was so upset I was ready to just walk away - and I did for two days. I made more edits and sent it out and decided that if i did not get the last payment so be it. This person is very controlling and had wanted everything her way and obviously does not know how to work with others and value others' input. It will be a miracle if this plan is ever put into place and used. It has taken me the last few weeks to start to sleep at night - the last two nights are the first entire nights'' sleep I have had in three months. Why do I take on so much? Well, I have decided that in 2010 I will not work more than half-time - that is all that I need to live on and I will work to live and not live to work.

It has caused me to do a lot of reflection on who I am and what I want to do in this next stage of my life. I have spent this time at Francois Lake - so peaceful. Today is one beautiful cold winter day -- it makes one think of everything in a new light. I have done my exercise - too brisk to be out skiing... and am working on crocheting a scarf... and thinking of other projects... looking at buying a spinning wheel - something I have always wanted.