Balance

I have not had any trouble sticking to my creative side.... did do exercise yesterday and on my way out today... and have had some challenges with my work side - but have addressed them. Stuck to my guns of saying NO... it took some encouragement from friends - but I did it!! Now that is a big step for me -- as in the past I would have given in and gone and done it... and I have read no work related emails at night or weekends - another big step... I am learning to work like others - it is hard - but I am creating change and that is what is important. Bob keeps saying if you are going to be a consultant you have to do what they want... but I believe I have control of what I want to do!! I am not in the position of having to take and do what everyone else wants me to do... I am at a stage in my professional life that I can pick and choose - and I will only work with positive and supportive people... I will work hard in these conditions - but no longer wasting my energies on situations and in environments where it is all stress and all personality egos... building themselves at my expense... NOT... I am enjoying each and every day - so much fun to have the time to make healthy meals and get a good night's sleep, have time to read for fun and create for fun... I have now made a decision to learn a skill I have always wanted to do... I have ordered fleece and a spindle so I can learn to spin and if I enjoy it I will buy a wheel and then I can spin and weave and knit... and spend my time creating ... and who knows where that will take me.... but at least it is with natural fibres and creative people. I am thinking that if I gain some skills I will look into going to Olds College next summer and do the Spinning and Weaving Program there... That has been a goal for several years -- now I am ready.... I am feeling really good about all my decisions this year... so 2010 will be a great year and spending next winter on Pender Island will further enhance my skills... with the close proximity to workshops.